The Calm Before the Storm?

I'm wondering now if I'm walking into the calm before the storm. The eye of the hurricane, perhaps, when everything is still and peaceful, before destruction hits.

So much is riding on this vacation that it's almost going to make or break many things. I became physically sick last night from what I'm guessing is nerves, and it's causing me to wonder if this trip is going to do more harm than good. But I need out of this god forsaken nomans land. I need civilization. I need a mall, for christs sake.

Im packed and beyond prepared. I have, like, 6 lists already made up. Things for the car ride down, Things for the airport, Things to remember, Things to remind people about. Things...things...things...

I feel overly prepared now, to the point where I'm worried. I wonder if that's what people feel like when they live in the midwest in Tornado Alley? They've got their cellars all stocked, but they still fear the unknown possiblities of the storm. I can relate.

I'm anxious, thats for sure, but what I dont know. Being back at home with my family? Meeting my Ohio friends for the first time? The traveling? How about d: All of the above.

Still, regardless of how much my nerves are affecting me I know deep down inside I need this trip. I need to be distracted. I need to be away from facebook for copious amounts of time. I need to get back to being me...before I was so dependant on my friends.

Thats my goal, at least.