Bitter Days.

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else in return.

His heart is breaking, his mind confused. Unsure but at the same time so sure of what he wants.

What is a girl to do when the one you love just doesn't love you?

I just want him to smile again. He says only she can make him do that. Yet she causes him so much anguish.

I did see him smile...and for one blissful, perfect week-after so many that were less than perfect-we were in sync.

But were we?

I feel so bitter today.

He's in pain and I blame her. I don't want to, though.

But I love him. I support him...and if he chooses to try again with her, I'll smile after I cry.

I'll smile because I know he'll be happy.

I'll cry because I'll know he'll be happy.

He said to me yesterday that he hated that he caused me pain.

I hate it, too. But I'm working on fixing the fact that his happieness causes me to be bitter.

I want to make our friendship work.

The road to switching someone from the "lover" zone to the "friend" zone is certainly filled with potholes.

I'm working on filling them.

No more bitter days...that emotion will only distract me from my path through the Dark Forest.